i can cause

its fun to pretend
and get the mind to bend
to say its not real
this pain i feel

i am a rebel
with no end to the trouble
i can cause
with the following clause

i will be honest in a dishonest world
i will be open in a close minded world
i will be wiling in an unwilling world
i will not exclude
but include
i will have only one authority
a loving god who has all the glory

beat me, rape me, strike me down
and i will rise again with my frown
worn for the harm it really causes your soul
hell will have its toll

i offered you hope

how can you know the truth of another
when you dont see the truth in the mirror?
do not pass out blame
without including yourself in the shame

you asked me to enter
told me that you suffer
i offered you hope
to which you said 'nope'

what more should i do?
i am not as cruel to you
as you are to yourself
so you must now help your own self

nothing can be built

why does it hurt so much
the absence of your touch
its clear
you dont want me near

all the plans made
have turned to shade
nothing can be built
when the heart does wilt

its all part of the plan
i know that grace will span
from now to then
and keep me free again

but blame not love

love will never stay
i can not find the way
want to believe
that love will find me

its hurting again
this pain doesnt end
but blame not love
for it is always a gift from above

and it does not cause hurt
for it is the invert
that creates the emptiness
and makes us feel penniless

we chased the little lights

all i can really say
is that i am grateful this day
for all the blessings given
and all the curses forgiven

we grew a little wiser today
and lighted the dark in a way
we chased the little lights
and talked about the fights

pages turn
and we earn
what we sow
its your secrets that keep you low

with our mad pursuits

im writing this for them
the ones we condemn
and ignore
even upon this shore

i hold my light aloft
so others can see what we bought
with our mad pursuits
we send our soul into destitute

i have enough to eat
but some their hunger pangs can not meet
innocent children die
for want of what we have in plenty you and i

from here to there

so slowly now
we seek the bough
laden with fruit
free from disrepute

we travel lightly
and all to briefly
from here to there
from birth to beyond a care

sometimes we dance
sometimes we feel the lance
sometimes we sing
sometimes we cling

in months and days

i can wail all i want
at the unhappiness i bought
but wear it i must
when i confuse love and lust

i want intimacy
you see
in months and days
and not in the other ways

it takes years to get there
but shortcuts i know never fear
that create a long delay
and stall us along the way

climbed out of hell

its freedom i offer
the end to terror
its hope i bestow
the raising of dreams brought low

i have been there
felt the scare
climbed out of hell
to ring heavens door bell

its dark where you are
but there is still a star
that will guide you from afar
and bring you to loves grand bazaar

give all my will

how can i surrender
and maybe sever
the love that has grown
and the beauty i have known

to a god i dont trust
they say i must
give all my will
but still

i am afraid of the dark
not knowing where is the spark
to light up the route
and bring an end to doubt

i would not degrade my soul

i am grateful
and not hateful
that i got to hold you again
and feel love without refrain

my dear
i wish only to be near
i would not degrade my soul
by pushing you into a hole

but gods will will be done
there is nowhere to run
surrender to it i shall
and know my spirit will prevail

the hole in my soul

the spider moves quickest
unto the fly that is weakest
such a fool am i
to think i was any different than any other fly

barely worth the pleasure
to dig at that treasure
the hole in my soul
is made worse from the toil

i miss my mom so much
and need hugs in a bunch
from good friends i have strayed
they knew i should have stayed

i could easily break you

i am with you now
kissing your fevered brow
stroking your lips
caressing your hips

i give your hair a gentle tug
and crush you in my hug
i could easily break you
but i have other plans for you

so come now gentle lady
you choose the master of hades
you had to fall to get to me
you choose every step of the path you see

and grant us another day

its gonna be alright
so ends the night
and all the bad times
no more selfish crimes

we have found a way
that will return us to play
and grant us another day
with serenity to stay

our faith is rewarded
our hope is upholded
our love returned
and our joy unconcerned

to hear her voice one more time

can i have her back please
for you see
i was not quite done
being an only son

can i talk to her again
would it be such a sin
to hear her voice one more time
please i promise not to whine

please she is my mother
and there is no other
that can replace her
please i still need her

no hope can there be

when so bruised
is the heart confused
that the mind
does the heart bind

we fight only ourselves
our own grave we delves
no hope can there be
when we refuse to see

that our fears
and all our tears
last only as long
as we make them strong

without a worry nor care

a new chapter is beginning
at the end of another inning
another loss for the home team
to late to redeem

someday soon ill get it all right
and go into one night
without a worry nor care
and not live to beware

but for today
all i can really say
is that no matter what foul play
its still gonna be okay

carry our toils

the sun rises again
to bring nightmares bane
and raise us with a grin
so we may begin again

into the new day
we run on our way
carry our toils
and win our spoils

we laugh or cry
say hello or good bye
and through it all we pray
that we made it all a little better this day

i wanna try

i wanna believe
this was meant to be
i wanna see
salvation for me

i wanna feel
loves wonderful deal
i wanna try
hopes answer to good bye

i wanna know
that faith does not forgo
i wanna trust
that it is more than lust

Elaine Ann Taylor

What can we say
on this horrible day?
That she should stay,
that we can not find the way?

She gave all that she had
and was always glad
to accept her role
only love and warmth in her soul

So vibrant and rich to her family
and caring to all with whom she was friendly
this lady of ladies
is now blessed and holy for all eternity

good bye mom - i miss you and love you