moving from one failure to another

its in the quiet of the night
thats its the hardest to see the light
to feel the tender touch
of loves unbreakable crutch

all i see is a life
filled with strife
moving from one failure to another
is how i have i been brother

just to make it numb
and no more to plumb
the depth of my pain
inside my own brain

a fresh new plan

i dont understand
what i have in hand
i fail and fail again
to keep my thoughts from sin

i want to be free
to travel and see
a fresh new plan
an end to terror in this land

into every heart i would go
to free them all from woe
to take it all into me
and set hope free

i want to feel

i want you to be
close to me
i want to see
my eternal beauty

i want to know
that its more than a show
i want to feel
how it is to heal

i need to understand
that in all this great land
we can do for one another
what we would have them do to each other

another day better than this

the gradual raising of the light
is how we end the night
the beginning of a new day
another chance to find the way

we are reaching for
something of which we are not sure
another day better than this
a huge vat of bliss

i miss the family i had
and i would be glad
to see them all returned
and not feel so spurned

i hear laughter again

i see hope being kindled
i see despair being swindled
i see faith spreading
i see fear receeding

i hear voices raised in song
i hear troubles saying so long
i hear laughter again
i hear joy setting in

from that time to this
we are coming to bliss
it hurt for awhile
but so soon we will all smile

i count for something

why can't i see
that they gotta come to me
trying to be right
only worsens my plight

want to understand
that in this land
i count for something
that i am somewhat more than nothing

lost and alone
to this i am prone
just be still they say
your blessings are here today

cant stop death from taking

its all part of the plan
its all within hand
never knew who we touch
when we are willing so much

cant stop bullets from flying
cant stop widows from crying
cant stop death from taking
cant stop the story ending

all i can say
is that there is hope today
for one can never know
how the story will go

laugh all you will

so what do i have to show
in my efforts to grow
some time without alteration
and just a little more patient

i am hurting
this is still smarting
laugh all you will
at my efforts to be still

not so hard as i pretend to be
even i need TLC
some kind words and a hug
instead of just a shrug

and plunge the needle home

its poison
this longed for sin
it will do nothing
but make me more confusing

but i dont care
i want to dare
and plunge the needle home
and feel what comes before methadome

im in the grip
and im gonna slip
plans are being made
here in the shade


'in a world full of people, only some want to fly, isn't that crazy?' Seal

i can cause

its fun to pretend
and get the mind to bend
to say its not real
this pain i feel

i am a rebel
with no end to the trouble
i can cause
with the following clause

i will be honest in a dishonest world
i will be open in a close minded world
i will be wiling in an unwilling world
i will not exclude
but include
i will have only one authority
a loving god who has all the glory

beat me, rape me, strike me down
and i will rise again with my frown
worn for the harm it really causes your soul
hell will have its toll

i offered you hope

how can you know the truth of another
when you dont see the truth in the mirror?
do not pass out blame
without including yourself in the shame

you asked me to enter
told me that you suffer
i offered you hope
to which you said 'nope'

what more should i do?
i am not as cruel to you
as you are to yourself
so you must now help your own self

nothing can be built

why does it hurt so much
the absence of your touch
its clear
you dont want me near

all the plans made
have turned to shade
nothing can be built
when the heart does wilt

its all part of the plan
i know that grace will span
from now to then
and keep me free again

but blame not love

love will never stay
i can not find the way
want to believe
that love will find me

its hurting again
this pain doesnt end
but blame not love
for it is always a gift from above

and it does not cause hurt
for it is the invert
that creates the emptiness
and makes us feel penniless

we chased the little lights

all i can really say
is that i am grateful this day
for all the blessings given
and all the curses forgiven

we grew a little wiser today
and lighted the dark in a way
we chased the little lights
and talked about the fights

pages turn
and we earn
what we sow
its your secrets that keep you low

with our mad pursuits

im writing this for them
the ones we condemn
and ignore
even upon this shore

i hold my light aloft
so others can see what we bought
with our mad pursuits
we send our soul into destitute

i have enough to eat
but some their hunger pangs can not meet
innocent children die
for want of what we have in plenty you and i

from here to there

so slowly now
we seek the bough
laden with fruit
free from disrepute

we travel lightly
and all to briefly
from here to there
from birth to beyond a care

sometimes we dance
sometimes we feel the lance
sometimes we sing
sometimes we cling

in months and days

i can wail all i want
at the unhappiness i bought
but wear it i must
when i confuse love and lust

i want intimacy
you see
in months and days
and not in the other ways

it takes years to get there
but shortcuts i know never fear
that create a long delay
and stall us along the way

climbed out of hell

its freedom i offer
the end to terror
its hope i bestow
the raising of dreams brought low

i have been there
felt the scare
climbed out of hell
to ring heavens door bell

its dark where you are
but there is still a star
that will guide you from afar
and bring you to loves grand bazaar

give all my will

how can i surrender
and maybe sever
the love that has grown
and the beauty i have known

to a god i dont trust
they say i must
give all my will
but still

i am afraid of the dark
not knowing where is the spark
to light up the route
and bring an end to doubt

i would not degrade my soul

i am grateful
and not hateful
that i got to hold you again
and feel love without refrain

my dear
i wish only to be near
i would not degrade my soul
by pushing you into a hole

but gods will will be done
there is nowhere to run
surrender to it i shall
and know my spirit will prevail