of fear we find defeat

yes & yes again
when joy lifts the pen
the turning of the season
has brought a new reason

to make the heart light
and banish the cold night
of fear we find defeat
and love we do meet

with each and every step
the promise is kept
that life does go on
eternal is the song

faith is redeemed

am i doing enough?
have i been tough?
have i been strong?
am i so wrong?

such a splendid life is this
to live with such bliss
faith is redeemed
in a heart that beats clean

can i be enough?
can i be tough?
can i be strong
to set to right what is wrong?

it's a game in our head

in comes panic
threatening to sink hope like the titanic
and worry settles in
with doubt sporting a grin

but what is fear
but shadows that are near?
it's a game in our head
this unfounded dread

so laugh at fate we must
for there is one we can trust
in heavens hands we dwell
and never our soul will they sell

i could look forever

would you please
help to appease
this burning in my heart
and give me a new start?

would you fill
the spaces that are still?
i could look forever
into eyes so clever

would you stay
just one more day
and see what it brings
be it sorrow or grins?

an end to terror he does bring

the secret crowds gather
and rather
than turn away
he comes this day

the lion does stir
and his heart is pure
an end to terror he does bring
to all who name him king

there is magic still
over wood and hill
rejoice for among you
walks one who is true

this dry land

oh the heat!
this is not a treat!
it is hard to greet
each hot day we meet

when will the rain fall?
the clouds stall and stall
this dry land
is giving all that it can

but hope still sings its song
and faith is still strong
and love is here to stay
even on the hottest day

no friends who call

its a loneliness so deep
that i can not sleep
no dreams to keep
no end to how i weep

when no one is there
no family, no heirs
no friends who call
no one to break the fall

please take my hand
and tell me im not banned
that love still finds me sweet
and has no more deceit

and see you everyday

they grow and grow
time does not slow
one alone then two
was the order due

i love you both so much
i wish i could touch
and see you everyday
but it is not the way

i am grateful just to be
your true daddy
you both bring me such joy
such beauties to enjoy

could not find

the heart is sore
for i tore
anothers trust
repent i must

she is sweet
and very neat
could not find
the courage in my mind

to be honest from the start
for my heart
is still not that strong
to sing my own song

my beautiful little girls

ive heard these all
and my heart did fall
so many promises broken
so many lies spoken

no stronger bind is there
than a father and his heirs
my beautiful little girls
dancing sunlight and she of the curls

i am just a man
and i dont know the plan
from up above
all i have to give you both is love

the only way is ahead

its a breath
away, what we call death
its a simple cause
from is to was

so here we go
and we must know
the only way is ahead
so know no dread

the path has been set
and we are well met
by the one whos grace
is ne'er out of place

take our love to the place

it is churning
this heart is burning
i am begging thee
to release me

open thy beauty
and let us for eternity
take our love to the place
where time has no face

wherever you go
this you must know
my love stays true
never turn my back on you

open i must

im lonely
i feel empty
sooner in the quicker out
and more into doubt

to get love
i must give love
open i must
the heart behind the crust

im ready i know
to not let go
its hard to be still
and wait for the thrill

want to hold on to pain

sometimes i wonder
at where did i blunder?
but looking back
is only a sidetrack

forward i must go
into what i do not know
want to hold on to pain
that kept me insane

yesterdays demons
can be the reasons
to keep me sick
but its the same old trick

how weak i am

strike me down
cast your frown
upon me
make me see

how powerful you be
how strongly you can see
how weak i am
and my life is a sham

beat me tear me apart
but know from the start
i have already won
for in me shines the sun

i wish to be

I seek you O Lord
in my heart you have struck the chord
of truth that no one can deny
of a soul no one can buy

i am seeking the glory
of the unending story
i wish to be
a spirit that is free

i look to you
and you tell me true
that eternal life
comes with strife

i should not hear

im not a monster
and i have no answer
i can only trust
in god i must

they come and plead
with lies they lead
i should not hear
but fate does steer

i am all alone
naked before the throne
i yearn for my true loves touch
i desire it so much

i know the heart seeks not

"..to remind us of the ones held back /
upfront there ought to be a Man in Black"

- Johnny Cash

i will not dispense pain
i will not offer shame
seeking a greater glory
seeking a purer story

i know the power of bended knee
to seek the divinity
i know the heart seeks not
ridicule for its lot

i will take the lowest chair
and i will dare
to dine on what is put before me
and grateful be

well met we be

this is yearning
this is learning
waiting wondering hoping
stuttering muttering moping

the truth does not fit
the picture of wit
well met we be
now you are free

the good lord shall bring
a brand new spring
and flowers shall grow
where the snow did blow

to join in the Great Recovery

rise and rise again
till we are free from sin
we are brought together
by failures cruel tether

break free we must
put an end to lust
to join in the Great Recovery
and set ourselves free

so much can be had
so much to make us glad
for forgoing a little pleasure
and storing up our treasure