to do all i could

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
-Say Something by A Great Big World

I stand apart
as it was in the start
so it ever shall be
until I am free

i tried and tried
with these tired eyes
to do i all i could
to be i all should

in the end
what does it matter friend?
nothing is ever good enough
no one has the right stuff

The way is prepared

A song was sung low

While the icy winds did blow 

But from winters dark heart

We find a new start

All is ready

Just hold steady 

The way is prepared

To those who would dare

Hold not to the night

But come into the light

A place is set

And you are well met

Confound and confuse

Let it move you
Let it shine true
Let the song scream forth
Bubble over with mirth

Choose not the way
of the spirits decay
Confound and confuse
vengeance's clues

deal not with darkness
spread your kindness
let peace reign
let all who will, sing

My love for you stands tall

I need you

I always needed you

I need you near

I need you here 

I love you

That much is true 

In the center of it all

My love for you stands tall

Tired of running

Tired of hiding

Tired of missing

The one I am loving

to wail and gnash

"but dreams come slow and you move so fast"
-Let Her Go, Passenger

one word at a time
is our rhyme
every verse written
is another sin forgiven

its going to be alright
you don't have to fight
to wail and gnash
and live in a flash

do what you can
its all part of the plan
a divine mystery
dedicated to the divine victory

i stayed true

"i find it very easy to be true"
-Walk the Line, Johnny Cash

where is my home
too long did i roam
words from beyond the grave
the only friends to this knave

i have nothing
to give to anything
i stayed true
and all it did was make me blue

i was not invited
nor was i welcomed
i have no place
in this fall from grace

dare to hold

"just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die..."
-Try, P!nk

dare to dance
and take that chance
dare to sing
let caution take wing

dare to kiss
to reach for bliss
dare to hold
this day be bold

ne'er going this way again
so seek out your grin
let your heart fly free
in you i believe

Done Going That Way

"Dancing through the fire, cause I am a champion..."
-Roar, Katy Perry


While you twiddle and twist
and chase the next bliss
I burn the midnight fire
Reigning in my desire

Danced so long
with a sad, sad song
Done going that way
Found a brand new day

It shook me to my knees
and a begged & begged please
But I'm on the rise
No stopping this tide

I hate myself most of all

"'Cause I love the way you call me baby"
-The Way I Am, Ingrid Michaelson

I am no sage
for I can rage
and let fury consume
a hearts fragile bloom

in the quiet that does follow
when my soul is so shallow
i hate myself most of all
so hard to stand tall

i am not worthy
of any beauty
nor would i recommend
for me to be a friend

played and danced

"But if you try sometimes, you get what you need..."
-Rolling Stones

Sometimes all I want
is to not want
To just sit and not feel
that i am missing a deal

journeyed far and wide
marched twice to take a bride
played and danced
cried and laughed

just want to see my children grow
and for them to know
that fear is the first step towards
courage's rewards

drink deep the clear air

"Honestly...I want to see you be brave"
-Brave, Sara Bareilles

come closer dear
and let me whisper in your ear
the secrets to life and love
the gifts from above

listen and listen again
to the ever blowing wind
drink deep the clear air
go forth without a care

what are we
that we should be
anything more than
part of the divine plan?

us to be

we struggle and strain
sometimes in vain
as long as our glory
is more important than the story

can we possibly see
what others believe
us to be
what should it matter to thee

all pieces in the divine saga
here for a bit of trauma
then back into the fold we go
our little hearts so bold

and take the final bow

"...you are born again hard..."
-Full Metal Jacket

Is it your glory
is it your story
for which you fight
the dying of the light

we march to the greater tune
and so soon do we all swoon
and take the final bow
at a time most apropos

volunteer for something greater
become a part of something that does matter
live not for you
live to be true

i didnt cry at night

"they don't love you like I love you..."
-Yeah yeah yeahs, Maps


when you come
to when you are done
will you say
i didnt get to play

i didnt get to be brave
i didnt get to rave
i didnt cry at night
for losing a fight

you were given your measure
and did you treasure
every breath you had
every thought, glad or sad?

but measure instead

or scream in denial

Just to be alive

We like to pretend

We know the end

Of the story

And who gets the glory

It's a simple play

As we journey into each day

Just to be alive

And live without pride

Try to be kind

And not to mind

The twists and turns

The joys and spurns

hopefully earn a tale to spin

the page does turn
hopefully to learn
from what did come
another day under the sun

we try and try again
hopefully to grin
hopefully earn a tale to spin
hopefully another friend to win

what is becomes past
what could is here at last
step by step
we move beyond regret

Who I should be

Once again

I wanted it to end

Rather to vanish

Than face the tarnish

Everyone does know

How it should go

Who I should be

And when I should fly free

Please just stop yelling

Please just stop hurting

Please just stop

Just stop

In loss the spirit does fill

Send me those who were betrayed

Send me those who are afraid

Of another broken promise

Of another tragedy that sprang from a kiss

In heartache the soul takes root

And from it a rarer flower does shoot

In loss the spirit does fill

The places that are now still

You are crafted from the divine

Do not over mind

The terrors of this day

For they will not stay