i count for something

why can't i see
that they gotta come to me
trying to be right
only worsens my plight

want to understand
that in this land
i count for something
that i am somewhat more than nothing

lost and alone
to this i am prone
just be still they say
your blessings are here today

cant stop death from taking

its all part of the plan
its all within hand
never knew who we touch
when we are willing so much

cant stop bullets from flying
cant stop widows from crying
cant stop death from taking
cant stop the story ending

all i can say
is that there is hope today
for one can never know
how the story will go

laugh all you will

so what do i have to show
in my efforts to grow
some time without alteration
and just a little more patient

i am hurting
this is still smarting
laugh all you will
at my efforts to be still

not so hard as i pretend to be
even i need TLC
some kind words and a hug
instead of just a shrug

and plunge the needle home

its poison
this longed for sin
it will do nothing
but make me more confusing

but i dont care
i want to dare
and plunge the needle home
and feel what comes before methadome

im in the grip
and im gonna slip
plans are being made
here in the shade


'in a world full of people, only some want to fly, isn't that crazy?' Seal

i can cause

its fun to pretend
and get the mind to bend
to say its not real
this pain i feel

i am a rebel
with no end to the trouble
i can cause
with the following clause

i will be honest in a dishonest world
i will be open in a close minded world
i will be wiling in an unwilling world
i will not exclude
but include
i will have only one authority
a loving god who has all the glory

beat me, rape me, strike me down
and i will rise again with my frown
worn for the harm it really causes your soul
hell will have its toll

i offered you hope

how can you know the truth of another
when you dont see the truth in the mirror?
do not pass out blame
without including yourself in the shame

you asked me to enter
told me that you suffer
i offered you hope
to which you said 'nope'

what more should i do?
i am not as cruel to you
as you are to yourself
so you must now help your own self