i didnt cry at night

"they don't love you like I love you..."
-Yeah yeah yeahs, Maps


when you come
to when you are done
will you say
i didnt get to play

i didnt get to be brave
i didnt get to rave
i didnt cry at night
for losing a fight

you were given your measure
and did you treasure
every breath you had
every thought, glad or sad?

but measure instead

or scream in denial

Just to be alive

We like to pretend

We know the end

Of the story

And who gets the glory

It's a simple play

As we journey into each day

Just to be alive

And live without pride

Try to be kind

And not to mind

The twists and turns

The joys and spurns

hopefully earn a tale to spin

the page does turn
hopefully to learn
from what did come
another day under the sun

we try and try again
hopefully to grin
hopefully earn a tale to spin
hopefully another friend to win

what is becomes past
what could is here at last
step by step
we move beyond regret

Who I should be

Once again

I wanted it to end

Rather to vanish

Than face the tarnish

Everyone does know

How it should go

Who I should be

And when I should fly free

Please just stop yelling

Please just stop hurting

Please just stop

Just stop

In loss the spirit does fill

Send me those who were betrayed

Send me those who are afraid

Of another broken promise

Of another tragedy that sprang from a kiss

In heartache the soul takes root

And from it a rarer flower does shoot

In loss the spirit does fill

The places that are now still

You are crafted from the divine

Do not over mind

The terrors of this day

For they will not stay

Nor the shiny bits of gold

Is this the way

Does pain just stay?

How do I refrain

From the sorrow that does remain?

It's not another's touch

That we find much

Nor the shiny bits gold

That make us bold

It's from the things we give

And those we forgive

That we find serenity

And have a chance at peace

I thought of taking my breath

"I'm free but I'm focused / I'm green but I'm wise / I'm hard but I'm friendly"

-Hand In My Pocket, Alanis Morrisette

I walked on

Still singing my song

Rise and rise again

And walk on my friend

Too many nights

So many plights

I thought of taking my breathe

And embracing death

But the darkness does not stay

And soon enough a new day

Dawns again

Walk on my friend

Easy gotten but yet

"Okay I used you!!"

-Jody Reverski

Is there an end

To the lies?

When will the good lord send

A beauty to my eyes?

But that's what I get

Chasing lust

Easy gotten but yet

So easy to bust

Then heartache sets in

But that is the deal

When we bid on sin

Our final payment too real

Wonders and woes

"Slow down my beating heart"

-U2

Such is life

Sometimes full of strife

Sometimes a ploy

Sometimes a joy

We get one day at a time

And in each we find

Wonders and woes

Sunshine and snows

Be glad of a constant friend

And know in the end

We all worked to play our part

From the end to the start

Holding us cold

"Felt so good to let go of it..."

-Daughtry

The earth is still turning

And we are still learning

Passing through trials

Facing our denials

Each of us locked inside

The bars of pride

Holding us cold

Keeping us from being bold

But what is there to fear?

Are you not so dear

Made by the masters hand

No one just like you in this land

The day is soon here

"But no matter what you do, you'll always feel as if you trip and fell. So steady as she goes"

-jack white

Oh my dear

Do not give in to fear

Hold fast

To the promise that will last

Be steady

Be ready

The day is soon here

When you see your fear

As the shadow that it is

A nightmare that does fizz

In the bold light 

Soon out of sight

Where would I learn

"You can not choose what stays and what fades away"

-Florence + The Machine

I didn't ask

For such a task

I didn't pray

To be this way

How could I have known

What I would be shown?

Where would I learn

How life would turn?

It's been my pleasure 

To have this adventure

One day at a time 

Is how we write this rhyme

A coward, a thief, a liar

"The blonde was called Freedom, the dark haired one Enterprise..."

-Jim Morrison

It's still on fire

This heart in a pyre

Burning and burning

Yearning and yearning 

Will it ever be cool?

I feel such a fool,

A coward, a theif, a liar,

A soul wrapped in barbed wire

I'm alive! I cry

To all the night sky

The heat of my blood

My thoughts are a flood

Of losing even one coin

No amount of money

Can make it always sunny

No amount of treasure

Will always bring pleasure

When we make money so dear

That we live in fear

Of losing even one coin

We lose the ability to join

We must walk the line

And know we will find

It is not as bad as feared

Or as great as savored 

The truth of this decree

"If you are lost you can always be found. Just know you're not alone..."

-Phillip Phillip

I know you're worth it

Every little bit

Of you is made from love

A true gift from above

Let your heart fill with grace

And let none replace

The truth of this decree

You are a true beauty

You are a song in this land

Crafted by the masters hand

A poem of divine thought

A treasure widely sought 

But carry on carry on

I send my song out to you

You who are blue

You who rue

The day life was given you 

It seems the pain

Will forever reign

But carry on carry on

For comes soon a new morn

Oh please promise me

That one more day you'll see

I'll help you through

My faith is true

From the unconquerable soul

"I am Not a POOR creature"

-Richard from Neverwhere

Do not pity me

Nay, stand by me

Though the night was deep

The faith I did keep

While the blood still flows

And the song still bellows

From the unconquerable soul

The end is still untold

I'm still smiling

I'm still rhyming 

This pen does not fail

This heart does prevail

When justice is delivered

In the midst of the pain

I found this refrain,

Let it be

Wait and see

The day will come

When lies are undone 

When justice is delivered

And darkness is severed

There is no darkness so deep

That it can keep

The light forever away

& deny a new day

One step at a time

The sun has risen

A new chapter given

Fates tumblers turned

The reward earned

 

It was perfectly played

The divine plan well laid

One step at a time

Brings us closer to the divine

Who knows where we sail

But love will always prevail

Hope is a constant friend 

And faith will never end

I'm dying inside

"An ounce of peace is all I want from you, will you never call again?"

-Hate Me by Blue October

Still the world does turn

And still we yearn

For that one extra bit 

One more sưck from the tit

So just let me be

Can't you see 

I'm dying inside 

There's nothing left to hide. 

I tried to be a good man

But I don't know if I can

Still I will try

Till the day I die

To our story

"I could show you what you want to see
and take you where you want to be"

-Safe & Sound by Capital City

Come away with me

And let our pleasure be

Our only guide

Nothing to hide

The world is vast 

And if we hold fast

To our story

We can live on in his glory

No powders nor potions

Nor foul smelling lotions

Do I have to offer

Only the wide world as my coffer

In the hearts of those

The truth shines free

It can not be

Hid for long

It is much too strong

The truth is the greatest gift

And causes no rift

In the hearts of those

That we love head to toes

You ruin yourself  worse

Than those you curse

With lies simply given

And love from you is driven

The glory of it all

You silence the roaring of the seas, the roaring of their waves, the tumult of the peoples.

- Psalm 65:7 (NRSV)

In steps calm

And it is a balm

Upon the thunderstorm inside 

The ever burning pride

Who am I

That I should deny

The glory of it all

I am so small

I do not understand

The ever moving masters hand

But this I believe

He loves even me

He is the eternal star

The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man

-Acts 17:24

He is the cooling breeze

The gentle swaying of the trees

He is the rising sun

The promise of a new day come

In our hearts he does dwell

Our love he does swell

He is the eternal star

Guiding us to play our part

He is there

No matter where

We may wander

He is the root of all wonder

Those who were starving

Life does not consist in the abundance of possessions

Luke 12:15

I want only what is true

To hold on to

Nothing I own

Will get me closer to the highest throne

How I treat those

Who had fewer clothes

Those who were starving

Whose health was failing?

I seek not glory

Or to further my story

I wish only to be

A useful servant to thee

We are but dust

But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong;

- 1 Corinthians 1:27

So sure of our course

That upon our high horse

We believe

It is only blessings we should receive

There is a power greater still

That bends all to its will

We are but dust

In the universal crust

We preach

And beseech

To make our tiny voices heard

To the ears of the good sheperd 

I will not go back

For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those that find it are few. 

-Matthew 7:14

It seems so far to climb

The peak, a thing sublime

The path is dark

The truths' stark

So onward I stumble

And though I may fumble

I will not go back

Into the pit so black

Still I hear the sirens call

For loneliness is my thrall

Fifteen minutes of pleasure

Is not worth the holy kingdoms treasure

The grace of your Word

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakenesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 

-2 Corinthians 12:9

I rest upon your rock

And let you block

My soul from persecution

My heart from tribulation

Only your love is perfect

How can any resist

The grace of your Word

Eternally it is heard

I go naked into the wild

Like a little child

I trust in you

To guide me true

Whatever I ask it to grow

"All the pain inside amplified by the fact that I can't get by with my 9 to 5..."

-Eminem

Shield me from bitterness

Protect me from ruthlessness

Do not let apathy take root

Let not vindication become resolute

My heart is a fertile field

And it will yield

Whatever I ask it to grow

Please let only love show

I pray to thee oh my God

Cast me not into Nod

Rather a servants servant in Heavans employ

Than Hells grandest viceroy 

Please tell me I am forgiven

"The futures uncertain and the end is always near"

-The Doors

I didn't mean to

Push you

All away

Please come back and stay

So many mistakes

Made for pleasures sake

Please tell me I am forgiven

That your hate is no longer given

I thought when you said forever

It meant that never 

Would you ever ever sever

Our love together

How does one let go

"I felt the power of death over life"

-Johnny Cash

 I looked and saw

The opening maw

Of hell's welcoming gate

And knew it was almost too late

I remembered when

My way led only to sin

How does one let go

Of the only way one has known?

One day at a time

Is how I perfect this rhyme

Reaching for something

Of which I know nothing

Brings wonder to every day

"I think you're my soulmate" 48hrs later

"Don't ever contact me again"

-Lisa Marie Miller

It is sorrow

That I ne'er need to borrow

What is sacred and dear

In a world ruled by fear

Still I know there is a plan

And the lords glad hand

Brings wonder to every day

And hope to those that stay

I only wish for no more lies

For part of me dies

With every one I have eaten

It's poison to my system

I'm still climbing

"I never even loved you!"

-Cynita De Bruin

Hit me as hard you can

And than

You'll see

What you could not believe

I'm still walking

I'm still rhyming 

I'm still climbing

I'mstill surviving

While you carry on in woe

Of what you let go

Rise and rise again

Ne'er shall this story end

Lift me up

"I just used you to get out to California"

Kelly Patricia Murphy

I throw myself at your feet

And give you my heart to keep

None else is worthy 

Nor cares for my sanity

Oh my good lord

I am crawling on your shore

Lift me up

And let me sup from your cup

So much twisted up inside

So much wasted pride

I have nothing more to hide 

I wish to stay only by your side

I ask the good lord to stay

"I'm so lonely I could die"

-Heartbreak Hotel

What do you do 

In a world indifferent to you

When all that you loved truly

Leaves you so lonely 

These are the times 

That among these rhymes 

I ask the good lord to stay

And be my friend this day

Come into my heart

And grant me a new start

Don't let me fall

Help me stand tall

Return to bring joy

"All your lies, all your lies, they will all be crystal clear"

-P!nk

It's only thunder

That tears my soul asunder

A darkening sky

That causes my courage to fly

The sun is never gone long

So soon does its song

Return to bring joy

And end the darks ploy

No reason to worry

Nor to hurry

All is well in hand

All throughout the land

Some comfort to that place

"No matter what we breed we still are made of greed"

-Demons

When the pain is out of sight

I pretend you hold me tight

My only comfort is a ghost

Of the one I loved the most

You don't say a thing

Just try and bring

Some comfort to that place

Where madness has a face

I scream and wail

And let my pain prevail

But you pull me close

The one I loved the most

I commit only to The Lord

"There goes a fighter..."

-The Fighter

Will you slow down?

I don't want to drown

In the wild flow

Of currents from your soul

I am taking my time

If you don't mind

I commit only to The Lord

For he is my salvation and sword

In darkness I did dwell

And found despair its only spell

Coming out into the light 

I choose not the wild night

That all things bend

"Dig if you will a picture..."

-artist formerly known as Prince

What is plan?

I am only one man

What do you need?

I am only one seed

I trust in you

I believe it to be true

That all things bend

To your glorys end

I looked for a wife

And found only strife

I searched for power

And was only brought lower

Don't be in doubt

"We're not broken, just bent and we can learn to love again"

-P!nk

So I wait and see

And continue to believe

That its not my will done

Under this sun

Enjoy what's given this day

And continue to play

Don't be in doubt

For love is always about

And when you sleep

And count your sheep

Your dreams fly free

And all is as it should be

We greet each new day

"Gods told me to relax, I'm gonna get fixed up right"

-Monster Magnet

Still we wonder

How to improve our plunder

To make more

Of our over abundant store

For what is there to fret

Nothing is sure yet

We greet each new day

And can only hope to stay

Our breaths are numbered

The plan is not sundered

By one thin dime

Only be the will of the divine

Joys we found

"But when I see the signs I jump on that lightning bolt"

-Jake Bugg

The time will flow

And the memories we stow

Visit us with fright

Or grateful delight

Hurts we knew

And troubles we did chew

Joys we found

When glad times abound

Step by step

We are kept

On the narrow way

To the ending of our day

Of conflicting dreams

"Find a way to lie about a home ill never see...."

-Superman from Dawson Creek

Which part is the lie

Your soulmate is I

Or to ne'er speak to you

Which one is true?

I need to go slow

Not get lost in the undertow

Of conflicting dreams

And too quick schemes

I still believe

That nothing can cleave

A love freely shared

To those who dared

If you are less than,

"'And Love is all' he said"

-Boy with moon and star

Think it matters?

If you are in tatters,

If you are less than,

If you are burdened by sin?

It's a divine love

That guides us from above

Absolute mercy

Is ours universally

Hold not to pride

And please don't hide

The glory of you

Should always shine true

The Lord did not arrive

"We'll be able to fly..."

-Blue Oyster Cult

They turned away

And my shame that day

Was not for me

But for my spiritual family

A mighty storm was sent

So that they might repent

The Lord did not arrive

To help the healthy thrive

He came to the poor and sick

And his only real trick

Was his undying belief

That God always loves you and me

To my internal pyre

"...now I'm found"

-Amazing Grace

To ease our mind

To be kind

To go and see

To live simply

This is my desire

What sets fire

To my internal pyre

And to reach higher

Take not for granted

All that is enchanted

Friends are the real gold

If the truth be told

and be a burden

"yes the fighter still remains"
-The Boxer


all the roads go on
under the fairest sun
twist and turn
for freedom they yearn

i go that way
for i cant stay
and be a burden
and keep on hurting

my heart is free
and though i long to be
greater than thou
i am happy with what i have found

some sunshine into the rain

"dont get to close / its dark inside"
-Imagine Dragons


So I will go
even though
i do not know
what the good lord has to show

im sorry for everything
i tried so hard to bring
some sunshine into the rain
some love against the pain

please dont hate me
i cant help that i must be
alive and free
untamed, wild, with no company

its where my demons hide

i need to let you go....

will ne'er leave my side

"Give me fuel - Give me fire...."
-Metallica


times they come and go
with only new lines to show
that i was burned again
in pursuing my sin

i pray to the one above
that the divine love
will ne'er leave my side
will n'er run and hide

im a simple man
and try as hard as i can
no one will stay
im left alone to play

held on so tight

"I've been trying to do it right / I've been living a lonely life"
-The Lumineers


its all gone
but still the song
carries on
forever and anon

i lost it all
so far was the fall
held on so tight
with all of my might

now fractured and torn
my soul so worn
my heart so battered
my mind so shattered

to apply to my burn

"you know me - i had plans..."

-The Black Keys


i accept and surrender
that a love so tender
is not this day to hold
not found in this mold

the plan is in motion
without a soothing lotion
to apply to my burn
i can only learn

i know not where this leads
and i am begging please
to fill this heart again
with a love without end

freedom

amen

 

im ready oh lord - i cast myself into your capable hands

what the next act will be

"go on - believe her when she tells you nothings wrong..."
-melissa etheridge


the past is done
and under the sun
i am free to begin again
let a new wind in

to the road i go
and only god can show
what the next act will be
so wait and see

the change swept through
and brought many new
friends and themes
and cancelled many dreams

it was lying there in the sun

"don't fear the reaper"
-blue oyster cult

i saw death today
and passed him on his way
many times hes passed me by
but never have i asked why

it looked to be bomb
inspired by psalm
it was lying there in the sun
i thought i would have some fun

if it be your will
to put an end to my thrill
then please let my daughters know
their papa did his best to grow

please just let me live

"I want to live with you, cook & clean for you, and be your woman..."
-Lisa M. Miller


how do i surrender
a love so tender?
how do i let go
of the only true love ive known?

but how do i believe
one so practiced to decieve?
please just let me live
i have nothing left to give

i am here all alone
have been for so long
while you found comfort with another
and left me to suffer

please oh lord stop the pain

"She once believed in every story he had to tell..."
-Pearl Jam


its screaming
and as its beating
its tearing
this heart is failing

doomed to ne'er forget
a love so simply beget
please oh lord stop the pain
and let love remain

wash away these memories
take the edge from their talons
let your will be done
even if i must come undone

to live as if you can not die

"'...cause he wanted to share
the key to the locks
on the chains he saw everywhere..."
-Pearl Jam


there will come a time
when i can no longer rhyme
when my pen fades away
and my breath does not stay

i give you only this
to live as if there is no bliss
to live as if you can not die
to live as if you will not cry

try and try again
though you may grin
and though you may wail
you are not done till the final nail

i can not even understand

"...and 'Love is all' he said"
-Cat Stevens

in the quiet of the night
is when i find the light
i know that im alone
and yet i do not groan

for the plan is still
be drafted with a skill
i can not even understand
no worries from this man

its a beautiful day
thats all i can say
i have food to eat
and a warm place to rest my feet

by the spider called fear

"that a broken heart is blind..."

-Black Keys

never let it be said
that i let dread
keep me still
its only another thrill

never let it be known
that i was overthrown
by the spider called fear
and my ship i would not steer

heartbeat by heartbeat
i have kept these feet
moving on
still singing my own song

enforcing with their might

"I watched with glee
while your kings and queens
fought for ten decades
for the gods they made."

-Rolling Stones


Its simple
the universal riddle
and yet it feels such a bother
to love one another

like children in the sandlot
each guarding our own little plot
enforcing with their might
that their toys are their right

till the time comes to leave
and then its too late to believe
so this i pray
be kind this day

is still not sufficient

"but i could swear by your expression
that the pain down in your soul
was the same
as the one down in mine..."
-Hedwig & the Angry Inch


who are you gentle reader?
are you living so much sweeter
than i could ever understand?
a life truly grand

but do you still feel empty?
that your plenty
is still not sufficient?
that you are somehow deficient

who knows why the storms come
and drive us from
a path that seemed blessed
where, it seemed, we knew best

of loves sweet embrace

"...every ounce of energy you try to give a way..."
-Bob Seger

it comes freely
and be it silly
with a twinkle in its eye
or plodding bye and bye

it comes to us all
the glorious wonderous call
of loves sweet embrace
it will find us no matter the place

so give and give again
freely as you can
that which you lay down in love
will be returned three times from above

begin to add up

"going wherever it leads..."
-Tom Petty


it is a simple lie
that pierces the hide
of the soul that sustains
our spiritual membrane

our little sins
that causes little snide grins
begin to add up
tiny cracks on the cup

until our spirit drains away
and forever from that day
is gone the divine grace
leaving nothing in its place

a way to bring

"but try, try, try to understand
I'm a magic man..."
-Heart


its reaching
its spreading
the flame always burning
is slowly turning

into each mind
does love find
a way to bring
a new song to sing

and joy dances long
with a heart full of song
as faith toils on
expanding graces dominion

my life was so complete

when loneliness sets in
it cause my brain to spin
queing up scences
from yesterdays dreams

with her and the boy
i found such joy
my life was so complete
even in the middle of my defeat

oh how i wanted her to stay
and be part of my every day
but that bridge has been burned
and a new page has been turned

such dust is made

"i find your lack of faith disturbing"
-Darth Vader


what a day we find
trying to plant in my mind
seeds of woe and worry
and cause my heart to hurry

tis but the turning of the page
an end to an age
such dust is made
when the final price is paid

love one another is the way
to bring glory to the day
to open what the devil would seal
and give freely what the devil would steal

i couldnt let you hold on

"slow down my beating heart..."
-U2


i can still feel you
the feeling being so true
i had to burn that bridge
it was the only gift i had to give

your feelings for me
were clouding your destiny
i couldnt let you hold on
to an uncertain fate under the sun

im sorry for the awful things
i said, my heart still sings
your song in my soul
ill love you forever truth be told

the strongest, the fastest

'with faith as small as a mustard seed,
you could command that mountain to move,

and it would'  - Jesus Christ


it has always been you
and know this to be true
that you are the best this race
has to offer this place

you stand as the greatest
you are the smartest
the strongest, the fastest
and the hardest

you are the pinnacle
of natures cycle
the best of the very best
a champion without test

and declare unto all divinity

"you can stand me up to the gates of hell
but i wont back down..."

-Tom Petty

who am i to think
that its only sweetness i should drink?
who am i to believe
that my heart should be free?

who am i to stand
before the throne that rules this land
and declare unto all divinity
that i deserve to be treated better than he

he did no wrong
everyday he lifted his song
he healed all who would come
and died a bloody, broken son

to find simple sweet release

"Remember spring swaps snow for leaves..."

-Mumford & Sons


There is no comfort for the fire
at the center of my desire
there is no freedom
from the claws of this demon

only in the ones above grace
can i turn my face
to find simple sweet release
from the mind of the beast

all glory truly belongs
to the one from whom all songs
found their birth
and gave freedom to all the earth

no one else to blame

"this rose will never die, this rose will never die..."

-Yusuf Islam (aka Cat Stevens)


dont find another
work it out with each other
why fade away
when you promised to stay

so much harder to form anew
and confuse lust for loves due
no one else to blame
for what your hands break in shame

so fleeting is life
no reason to add to the strife
make steps forward sure
than to live with too much cure

be made by another

it doesnt matter the song
or how long
the tune does endure
it matters that we voice it pure

that we all should lift up our voice
and not let our choice
be made by another
the song of our own heart must thunder

come and sing with me
all who would be free
all who cherish the light
of a life lived burning bright

hold not to treasures

"so get gassed in your garage of sickness
as I bring a little swinging into your world of stiffness"

-Kid Rock


what have we to worry
when there is no hurry
the pale rider does know
when its his time to show

love all that you can
help all that you can
hold not to treasures
or vain empty pleasures

the soul that stands longest
is the heart that beats strongest
the mind that will just be
is the spirit that does fly free

in the great giving

'i'm gonna keep on trucking till i fall into motion...'

-Kid Rock

There is room at the table
for all that are able
to make their way there
to overcome their despair

there is plenty in the feast
none shall have least
in the great giving
all are worth saving

tis only our self-pity
that keeps us from joining the dity
we all have a voice
& we all have a choice

how really good we can be

i will make a stand
and rise above the ban
i will not give in
to what is popular again

we want everyone to know
and we want to show
how really good we can be
how kind and loving are we

but its more of the same
its really only a game
we still think we are slick
when we repackage an old trick