It's time

So after months of consideration I have decided that I will not be adding any new content to this blog. This had been a wonderful outlet for me to deal with my grief but it is time to move on. I appreciate everyone who took time to read what I had to offer. I will leave this blog up. I will be starting another writing project on Wordpress or whatever the latest blogging type platform is. This will be chronicling my journey from this point forward. God bless. Good luck. 

To the finish line

"We are reaching for something that's already found us" -Jim Morrison

Step by careful step

We walk through regret

We leave behind pain

We let love reign

It's all a phase

Another leg of the race

To the finish line

When we rejoin the divine

The games we play

As we go through each day

The love we make

The hardships we take

over and over again

"sad woman take it slow - it will work itself out fine - all we need is just a little patience..."
Patience by GnR

i awoke
and my tears i did choke
for in my dream
your agony was plain and mean

you walk not alone
for it has been shown
over and over again
there is always an end to pain

in time the sun will shine
and it will all feel fine
you will remember you are precious
that your beauty leaves me breathless

i am holding my ground

"the story of my life - i give her hope - i spend her love until she's broke inside..."
The Story Of My Life - One Direction

I am writing the verses
against the darkest curses
i am holding the flame
against the deepest shame

i am standing long
against the twisted song
i am holding my ground
against the immoral sound

when its all said and done
what have you become?
when its all said and done
you'll see - i already won

To get too close

It's digging in

Getting closer to the win

It's slowly crushing

Everything it's touching 

No one cares

No one dares

To get too close

Its a howling screaming ghost

No where in this wide world

Is there a bright enough pearl

Of wisdom to counsel rest

The beast is hard to resist

No one will care

Please can't you see

That you're killing me

I don't know what to do

To stop feeling so blue

I'm going to die alone

Far from any throne

No one will care

Because I have nothing to share

It's all been taken

And I am forsaken

Cast out into the cold

Far from arms that hold

This simple knave

"You put your arms around me and I'm home"

Arms by Christina Peirri

I'll never make it

But I'll never shake it

This mountain I must climb

This destiny so divine

I'm not going to win

And though I may be free from sin

This simple knave

Doesn't get the save

So much between

A failure who has been

On the mountain side

And a loser with no pride

But never more

"Mr. Mojo rising... Got to keep on rising..."

LA Woman - The Doors

You are my kryptonite

Try as I might

To let you go

My heart does know

I pine for a home

A place to call my own

But never more 

Shall I find my door

Still even this poet

Can hope for it

A place of no lies

And no good byes

and just let things be

"and darkness has a hunger that's insatiable, and lightness has a call that's hard to hear..."
Closer to Fine - Indigo Girls


another day has come
under an old sun
we find our way
and banish the shadows away

its hard sometimes
to relax our minds
and just let things be
so much unease

still its all part of the plan
let faith reign in the land
be good, do good
it will be as it should

We are clay

"So you wanna play with magic..."

Dark Horse by Katy Perry

Looking out

Wondering what it's about

Wandering in

Reflecting on sin

There is no denying

There is no crying

We are clay

At play

Large to small

Low to tall

We play our roles

And cherish our souls

to do all i could

"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
-Say Something by A Great Big World

I stand apart
as it was in the start
so it ever shall be
until I am free

i tried and tried
with these tired eyes
to do i all i could
to be i all should

in the end
what does it matter friend?
nothing is ever good enough
no one has the right stuff

The way is prepared

A song was sung low

While the icy winds did blow 

But from winters dark heart

We find a new start

All is ready

Just hold steady 

The way is prepared

To those who would dare

Hold not to the night

But come into the light

A place is set

And you are well met

Confound and confuse

Let it move you
Let it shine true
Let the song scream forth
Bubble over with mirth

Choose not the way
of the spirits decay
Confound and confuse
vengeance's clues

deal not with darkness
spread your kindness
let peace reign
let all who will, sing

My love for you stands tall

I need you

I always needed you

I need you near

I need you here 

I love you

That much is true 

In the center of it all

My love for you stands tall

Tired of running

Tired of hiding

Tired of missing

The one I am loving

to wail and gnash

"but dreams come slow and you move so fast"
-Let Her Go, Passenger

one word at a time
is our rhyme
every verse written
is another sin forgiven

its going to be alright
you don't have to fight
to wail and gnash
and live in a flash

do what you can
its all part of the plan
a divine mystery
dedicated to the divine victory

i stayed true

"i find it very easy to be true"
-Walk the Line, Johnny Cash

where is my home
too long did i roam
words from beyond the grave
the only friends to this knave

i have nothing
to give to anything
i stayed true
and all it did was make me blue

i was not invited
nor was i welcomed
i have no place
in this fall from grace

dare to hold

"just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die..."
-Try, P!nk

dare to dance
and take that chance
dare to sing
let caution take wing

dare to kiss
to reach for bliss
dare to hold
this day be bold

ne'er going this way again
so seek out your grin
let your heart fly free
in you i believe

Done Going That Way

"Dancing through the fire, cause I am a champion..."
-Roar, Katy Perry


While you twiddle and twist
and chase the next bliss
I burn the midnight fire
Reigning in my desire

Danced so long
with a sad, sad song
Done going that way
Found a brand new day

It shook me to my knees
and a begged & begged please
But I'm on the rise
No stopping this tide

I hate myself most of all

"'Cause I love the way you call me baby"
-The Way I Am, Ingrid Michaelson

I am no sage
for I can rage
and let fury consume
a hearts fragile bloom

in the quiet that does follow
when my soul is so shallow
i hate myself most of all
so hard to stand tall

i am not worthy
of any beauty
nor would i recommend
for me to be a friend

played and danced

"But if you try sometimes, you get what you need..."
-Rolling Stones

Sometimes all I want
is to not want
To just sit and not feel
that i am missing a deal

journeyed far and wide
marched twice to take a bride
played and danced
cried and laughed

just want to see my children grow
and for them to know
that fear is the first step towards
courage's rewards

drink deep the clear air

"Honestly...I want to see you be brave"
-Brave, Sara Bareilles

come closer dear
and let me whisper in your ear
the secrets to life and love
the gifts from above

listen and listen again
to the ever blowing wind
drink deep the clear air
go forth without a care

what are we
that we should be
anything more than
part of the divine plan?

us to be

we struggle and strain
sometimes in vain
as long as our glory
is more important than the story

can we possibly see
what others believe
us to be
what should it matter to thee

all pieces in the divine saga
here for a bit of trauma
then back into the fold we go
our little hearts so bold

and take the final bow

"...you are born again hard..."
-Full Metal Jacket

Is it your glory
is it your story
for which you fight
the dying of the light

we march to the greater tune
and so soon do we all swoon
and take the final bow
at a time most apropos

volunteer for something greater
become a part of something that does matter
live not for you
live to be true